as my present turns into pass and my future turns into present

                10/27/1992 the day that I was giving birth, I do not have a clear view of what life is about, sometimes I feel like I just go through life like a leaf that felt in the river and is being sweep away by the rivers current. An as was being sweep I encounter rocks on the way. For example, the day I found out that we were leaving Mexico to come to the U.S.A was the hardest thing that ever crossed my ears. I was introduced to a whole different world that I had to try to adapt too. As I tried to adapt to my new life I was introduced into Cristian’s world or at least that’s what I called that place in my head, where I zoom out to be alone. Every time I zoom out into my world I drew and that’s where I learn that skill that I now posses and I’m trying to master. I loved to draw people an anything that I find emotional too me. Besides drawing since I was 6 I played soccer because, is the sport where I feel free and I forget the outside world and it just a sport that also helps me go into cristian’s world.

                Now in present day I am still riding those rivers current I have no idea what I want to do with my life. Moreover, I’m just doing what I think is best for me right now I believed if I do that in the future something good must come out. Now presently I attend Oxnard College and work at the fields I try to do my best in college but I need the money too so it’s something that I need to work out. Now that I graduated high school I hardly play soccer not because I don’t want too, but because I have no time. The good thing is that I still draw and when I draw; My mind frees itself and trap emotions are left in every single shade I put on paper.

                I would like to talk about my future but my future is blank, and all I can say is that I am trying my hardest to find out what I want 10,20,30,40, or even a hundred years from now. All I have to say that as my present turns into pass, and my future turns into present, I will be learning the true meaning of life.  I feel like I’m not the only person that is dealing with this but this is the rocks that we all encounter on the river. Sorry I didn’t talk about my future, but my future is blank.